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I didn\u2019t expect to live life with chronic illness.
I didn\u2019t expect the spins, the sensitivity to sound, the migraines that left me in the dark.
I didn\u2019t expect to rewrite my schedule, my dreams, or my definition of strength.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But life has a way of asking us to let go of the version we planned, and lean into the one that is.
And somewhere in the middle of symptoms and surrender, I\u2019ve learned a few things that continue to shape me in the most unexpected ways.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Strength Isn\u2019t Always Loud \u2013 I am still working hard on this. I struggle with this daily but I try and these are things that I am learning<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Before M\u00e9ni\u00e8re\u2019s Disease, I used to think strength looked like pushing through, carrying on, doing all the things.
Now, strength looks quieter. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s getting out of bed when my head feels heavy.
It\u2019s choosing kindness when I\u2019m short on patience.
It\u2019s asking for help instead of pretending I don\u2019t need it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Strength is showing up anyway\u2014without pretending I\u2019m not hurting.
It\u2019s honoring my body\u2019s needs and still choosing to live with purpose.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
God is gently redefining what strong means for me. And it no longer looks like independence.
It looks like dependence on Him.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Surrender Is Not Defeat<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Surrender used to feel like giving up.
Now I understand it as giving over\u2014offering my life, my body, my story, to the God who still holds it all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When you live with chronic illness, you give up a lot:
Plans. Predictability. Energy. Expectations.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But I\u2019ve discovered that surrender is where peace begins.
Not because everything gets better overnight, but because I stop fighting a battle I was never meant to fight alone.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Letting go of what I can\u2019t control has opened my hands to receive what I didn\u2019t know I needed:
Compassion. Rest. Presence. Peace.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Faith Looks Different Here<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Faith in the midst of pain is less about declaring big things and more about whispering truth to myself on hard days.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Some days I can pray with confidence. Other days, I just breathe His name.
Both are valid. Both are enough.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
God isn\u2019t waiting for perfect prayers or strong performances.
He\u2019s present in the pauses, the tears, the messy middle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He walks with me in the grocery store when I feel dizzy.
He steadies me when the ringing in my ears is relentless.
He meets me in the moments no one else sees\u2014when I lie in the dark and ask Him to just get me through the next hour.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That\u2019s faith. Real, raw, quiet faith. And I\u2019m learning that it\u2019s more than enough.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Showing Up Matters<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chronic illness forced me to stop showing up for everything.
But it also taught me to be more intentional about where I do show up!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve learned to show up with empathy. With listening ears. With soft words and deep compassion.
Because I know what it\u2019s like to feel invisible. To feel like you’re falling behind while the world keeps moving.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Showing up might look like writing this post from bed.
It might look like being present with my family, even if I\u2019m not at full capacity.
It might look like using my story to encourage someone else to keep going.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And that matters.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You don\u2019t have to be at 100% to make a difference.
You just have to be willing to bring what you can.
Even if it\u2019s 40%, even if it\u2019s a little wobbly.
There\u2019s beauty in the offering.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
To the One Walking This Road Too<\/p>\n\n\n\n
If you\u2019re living with chronic pain or illness\u2014if your body feels like it\u2019s working against you\u2014I want you to know this:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You are not weak for needing rest.
You are not failing because you have limits.
You are not forgotten just because others don\u2019t see the battle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You are deeply loved.
You are held.
You are still being used by God in quiet and powerful ways.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chronic illness may change your pace, but it doesn\u2019t cancel your purpose.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So show up gently.
Surrender what you can\u2019t control.
Redefine strength with grace.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And know that you are never walking alone.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
With Love, <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Laura<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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